life just happens

catatan below is my 'surat update hidup' kepada my bffs. just to share with you guys!

many things happening in my life lately. latest my wan meninggal ahad lps. so my wan ni dia paling kurang sakit2 compared to atok. tp last week thursday dia masuk KBMC (tpt aku bersalin tu) sbb mengadu sakit perut. mak aku jaga full time. mak kata tgklah wan dia sakit sgt tak penah tgk wan sakit mcmtu. selalu dia buat2 tak sakit je tau. kalini mmg nampak dkt muka dia kerut2. so hari sabtu aku gi tgk wan. dgn izin Allah masa azan maghrib, mak aku takde kt wan aku sbb dia g solat. so wan tiba2 batuk and wet her bed. i had to papah her masuk bilik air, tukarkan kain, pakaikan pampers dgn makndak, clean her up, and amikkan wuduk. lama aku dok dlm bilik air dgn dia. pastu papah her back to katil. pakaikan tudung, and socks so dia bole jamak maghrib isyak. menginsafkan sgt masa tu tp i was glad Allah buka jalan utk aku, sebab about 12hours pastu she passed on. abes sume tu aku nak g jln2 KLCC so i said goodbye to her, she smiled at izzah and kissed izzah and i kissed her suh dia cpt baik. aku g KLCC g belikan vicks dgn minyak yu yee cap limau utk dia cos dia ngadu tekak dia pedih rasa luka2 seluruhnya. pas balik KLCC dlm jam 11 aku singgah KBMC hantar ubat tu dan fetch mak. masatu wan dah tutup lampu tidur ditemani paklang. hmm never that i know, subuh tu wan pergi selama2nya. Ya Allah terima kasih sebab buat aku tak terkilan and got the chance to be with my Wan even only for short time.

so now atok stays with us (umah mak). he cant bear staying in tampin house cos asik teringat2 arwah. tapi aku tatau arrangement mcmana minggu dpn when we depart for aceh. aku terpikir nk sponsor je tiket atok ikut kitorg tp dont think he larat jalan2. ksian kang.

lagi..i received a news that i have to travel to manado (indon) 16 march ni. aku dok doa tak jadi..if yes this will be first time aku parted dgn izzah at night. huuu sedih. aku dah terpikir possibility of bringing her, tp ksian dia kot nanti. travel ni bukan senang. aku nk bwk brg aku pun kelam kabut..so i will pump and bring back stok susu..kena plan logistiknye lah..ade je banyak mommies yg travel for work and still continue bf, kena cekal banyak lah.

hmmmmmm..izzah plak mlm smalam jatuh tilam (nasib kitorg belum ade katil!). terjerit ok. asalnya aku bf dia then peluk dia kt tgh katil, tau tau dia dah takde dan terjerit dkt bwh. omgg sian. dia baru pandai roll over and roll back..so dah merata2 atas katil. dia kalo seblom tido akan roll2 sampai dia selesa baru tido huhu..so kitorg tgh dok consider nk beli baby cot..haha lambat kan.., wpun maybe last2 tido dgn kitorg juga, at least ade option lah.

alamak aku kena g sambung keja..bubbye dulu guys

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